inside, outside, upside-down

Lately I feel as I've been a little more engaged with life, and with my life. I am feeling the luxury of a little perspective, and have not been quite so amazingly ground down by anxiety.
It's still there as a constant low hum. But like someone with tinitus, I think I'm getting used to it, and even starting to get on with my life despite it. Ignoring it where I can, and fighting it when I have the strength.
I've been lucky enough to be feeling a fair bit of delight in my life lately. Things are in a good place, and the warming of the weather is also starting to help my mood.
There's recently been a great deal of remembering of my life when I was younger.
Remembering who I was and how I viewed the world, and where I wanted to be, and the choices I made. I am such a different person now. But I do miss the younger me as well.
After the last 6-12 months of feeling like I'm keeping my head just above water mentally and emotionally, I'm now starting to feel a sense of gain, a sense of movement upwards and forwards. Things are falling into place more often. Hard work is being rewarded. The universe is granting me some gifts.
*smiles*